bubbledlove

i hope today will be better.
still no mood to do ER.
but i knw i must persist.

Dear God,
Despite all my shortcomings and troubles, thank You for being there for me.
Please give me the strength and guidance i need to focus on my schoolwork and none on distractions.
Thank You for the gift of today and I pray that You'll watch over my family and friends everyday.
Amen.

i need closure.
that's all i need.
i need to get over u.
i need time.
i need. you.

im beginning to like the smell of the Johnsons PH 5.5 body wash..
it's a major difference frm the dettol cool soap that im using but ive grown to like it..
even though it doesn't give me that cooling after effect..
i shall try to start my ER assignment soon.
note the keyword TRY
but i knw i must do it. haiz.. the wonders of being a student..

anw, i have to go to causeway point today to buy bedsheets and 3m hooks then have oxtail for lunch! ((:

im beginning to forget. i am scared.

mon (8/2)
12 - lunch / justin comes
1 to 3 - send carpets to Bukit Timah Plaza
3 to 5 - test drive subaru at toa payoh, work out finances
7 - dinner with qm, janis, dan at dhoby ghaut

tues (9/2)
12pm to 6 - kim seng's hse do proj
MAYBE mj till late at tiff's hse

wed (10/2)
1.30 - lunch with cheryn at SIM
3.30 to 6.30 - Prices & Markets

thurs (11/2)
8.30 to 11.30 - HMT
HMT DUEEEE OMGGGGGGG

fri (12/2)
12 to 3pm - ER lect

haiz, so tired how to do ER..
or, more like, where got MOTIVATION to do ER..

haha..

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING EVERYBODY!!!
TIME TO BUY ORANGES! :D

i haven't even started on my ER assignment which is due on 20th feb.
exactly 14 days more. but many days will be eroded away due to CNY..
haiz..
in a predicament.
not fun.

ytd, went to mass. aft that, went to woodlands ave 1 to pump petrol where we met gou ku kong (4th Grand Uncle)
he bumped into mum hahaha.. mum was thinking like, wth, i try to move past him without knocking into him he walk straight into me. hahaha..
damn funny..
then the cashier also  another gundooooo.. so long la to wait.. annoyance..

went to causeway but carpark was so crowded that we went to sun plaza instead..
walked arnd for a while then came home.
hung up hooks for pics..
niceeee (:
slept damn late last night due to that..

i need to find a chair with a backing that i can put on my bed..
im like slouching and hunching trying to use my com and it's making my back ache :(
oh wells..

went shopping on fri aft ER lect with mum..
bought so much stuff!!!!!!
damn tired..
cld hardly wake up for class the next day..
haiz..

ok, i shall take a nap (:
hahaha..
pls pray for me.
haiz.

ok.. it's the 5th night in our new home and more boxes have been cleared.. YAY!!!
but im still feeling so damn tired..
i have 3 big boxes brought over from the old hse but i managed to clear 2 into mum's cupboard cos our cabinets wont arrive until aft CNY :(
i forgot to take out my ibank token which i think i forgot where i left it.. haha..
i guess it's up in mum's cupboard now..
been climbing up and down the ladder, rearranging my stuff to fit it in.. whew!
damn tiring and hot!! hot cos i can't switch on the fan unless i want to chop my head off or something.. hahahahaha..

so.. 1st 3 nights here saw no aircon.. thank God it was windy enough with the fan on..
just today, the glass panels surrounding the shower has been put up and im no longer being scolded for making the bathroom wet..
like hey, IT ISN'T MY FAULT!!!!!! there's nothing to keep the water in the minimum space.. hmph!
on the 1st night, the only basin that was working was in the kitchen.. and the next day, had to shower and brush our teeth at the same time..

and OH MY TIAN, the amount of dust that's biting into my face..
i guess dust mites and i are going to be friends for a while.
well, at least most of the things are up.. the buffet hutch and tv console are outside..
so mum is going to move the tv/cable/miotv outside to the living room..
we have like a ton of flattened boxes to throw away.. and some boxes that are filled with rubbish as well..
i think once the cabinets come, i'll do another round of spring cleaning..

school's not picking up yet though..
i still have to get started on my Employment Relations assignment which is due on 20th feb..
and HMT is due on 11th feb.. wahhhh..
at least the HMT grp proj is almost complete.
been cutting down the number of words from like 544 to like 367 or something like that..

ive been troubled lately
thank God for friends who listen..
i just needed someone to talk to..
thanks Tiff/Jo/Sara..

anw, singtel is being a bitch..
i called them up like 3 times today..
i looped the phones with the mio..
can call out but cannot answer call except the main one..
ughhh
frustrationsssss..
the singtel technician that came last sat is USELESS..
fix also nvr fix properly..
YOU SUCK!!!
and then called again cos the phone was getting weird feedback/signals and it's cos the mio can't take more than 2 phones and advised us to get the singtel duo cordless phones..
and cheapest is like $50.. and telling the guy that our old house used to have 3 phones didn't help.. he's adamant that the mio can only have max 2 phones for maximum signal and whatevs..
ugh..
so annoying right??

anw, im going to slp now..
830 lect tmr morning..

oh yeah!! i went to sch by mrt today.. took all the way down to jurong east then stopped at clementi..
i went to the wrong bus stop but i met david there..
and walked across the mrt again to the correct bus stop..
HAIZ..

ok, NIGHT!

haiz..
no mood to do anything.
can't be happy.
can't be sad.
all i know is that i want to cry.
i am so tired.
im not even resting well at night.
i wish i wont complain so often.
but i can't seem to contribute positively to the HMT project and i still have an essay to write.
having period sucks.
i wonder if my life can get any worse.

tonight's the last night in chiltern park.
alot of boxes are packed.
i can't believe we're shifting.
it seems like only ytd we shifted into chiltern park.
i am getting emo :SSSSSS
but i guess shifting house is part and parcel of life.

just got back frm the new house..
place is looking better..
lorna and mama spent the day cleaning up the house..
mama's room the only one that's done so far.. the fan/light and her bed are in..
mum's room has some nitty gritty stuffs..
they put up the toilet doors this evening only..
haiz..
me and jie's room dont even have the fan/light :(
but our headboard and bedframes are there.. just gotta wait for the mattresses to come ((:

okies, im tired..
just spent the entire day out :(

830-1130 lect
aft that until 530 - grp meeting at ks house..
then i went to the new place..
i got lost and ended up at kraji singapore turf club..
hahaha..

but i found my wayyyy (:
then tua ee, mum and paul came.. so did gwen and korkor..
went to buckeroos at sembawang park for dinner..
not before going to bottletree park and getting lost..
and having an almost empty tank that we had to go to esso to pump.. lolols..

miss the cousins.. hahaha..
sians abt assignments..
i dunno, i guess i just can't do it.. haiz..

gtg, more packing to do!

FML.

can it get any worse?

having lunch at kim seng's hse now.. we da baoed cai fan from bukit pangjang plaza..
YES, i am super far away frm home..
sara says that lady gaga looks like mary parker follett..
like WHAT????
lols..

gtg..
shld start soon..

dont wanna do hmt project. thanks jie for helping me do it. haiz.. feel so tired so drained. so SIAN.. hahaha.. packing and preparing for the big shift..
i have 2 essays due the wk aft chinese new year.. oh joy.. haiz.. i dunno.. i have to really buck up.. but i dont feel like doing so.. HOW???

feel sucky falling ill due to the stupid hokkien mee..
it has been deduced as FOOD POISONING frm monday night..

the sis n i went to town then went to tp koufu to eat hokkien mee and met shawn..
the next day, both of us fell ill..
i felt like puking when i went to the national library aft lunch..
but it's funny cos i felt fine when i went to kimseng's house..
then went to eat duck kway chap and was feeling wonky aft that..

in the evening, went home and dad had to come and send the both of us to the doctor..
haiz..

skipped class ytd but went to sch today..
my oh my.. sara's hair damn cool!!! but i dont think she looks like ah lian..
maybe just a badass girl.. hahahaha..
nice lehs.. she cut bangs and all..
haiz, i think i'll have my hair trimmed cos my fringe is damn long alrdy..
will not touch the length..
shld i dye it?
haiz..

decisions decisions..
HAHAHA..

ok, going to shower..
been awfully hot these past few days.. (even though it just rained)

classes this morning (AGAIN) at 830 am..

anw, more exciting news

I GOT MY CANON 500D!! :D
am uber happy!! :D

ytd was super tiring cos i had a horrible lunch.
slept for awhile, went to bishan to pick up the camera and then came home
aft a very short while, went to pick mum up and headed to the new house.
went with uncle lawrence's idea of how to place the beds and the colours on the walls
whee aft that, went to upper bkt timah, opp beauty world and had teochew porridge..
then, the egg supplier lady came and mama wondered if she sold eggs.
so paul called her and i asked her if she sold eggs in chinese..
then mama bought 2 trays frm her and then all of a sudden, random ladies and one old uncle bought eggs frm her too!
was in a horrible mood cos i was stuck with mama, mum and paul..
haiz..
went to da vinci and looked at the furniture.
there was this 3-1-1 sofa settee that was super duper comfy and AWESOME and was a whooping $12k..
wow, talk abt expensive man.. the chandeliers were so nice too!
the crystals were frm preciosa.. haha.. was telling mum, go to WA and steal the crystal samples and build our own chandelier.. lols!!!!

today was better. sch in the morning. swam at justin's plc. went for a late lunch at mad jacks at like 3+ (SUPER HUNGRY BY THEN!)
then went to thomson to mail out a parcel and justin's letter then went to s'goon gardens to buy snowie's food..
back home and im feeling sleepy cos there's not much to do..

actually, i have alot la.. but damn lazy :S
assignments and what nots.
this week was pretty slack ((: hahaha..

business finance tmr morning at 830am..
God, pls help me.

exactly 2 more weeks before we clear out of this house in serangoon and shift to admiralty..
it's an exciting milestone in my life.. cos when i was young, we shifted like every 4 years or so..
but this hse in s'goon, we've lived in it for like 10 yrs yo.. that's super long..
and now, when we shift, there's so much things to pack..
you have to pack it urself, and u don't knw what to take and what to throw..
worse than spring cleaning..
hahahaha..

anw, i think mum wasted a whole load of money buying study tables and the bunk bed in dec 08 and we only used them for a year..
haiz..

anw, more exciting stuff awaits i guess..

babes watched oprah and said that our resolution is to lose weight, become healthier and be happy. haha.
i think only the be happy part is applicable..

( Jalan Kayu )

On fri, met tiff at ssdc.. and saw MARCUS!! like omg. haha.. he wanted me to send him to novena.. wth.. stopped him outside yck mrt.. haha..
tiff and i went to wheelock (:
ate at some ramen place.. but it's not good.. the mee is like so thick and starchy.. the soup tastes of MSG.. omg..
try Shin Nichi at International Plaza instead.. prompt service but abt the same price as this ramen shop in ion..
walked arnd and went like all over.. hahaha..
then she had to go for jap and i went to sch..

omigosh.. reached school.. didn't want to go in then i met alvin. haiz.
had hmt. last lect frm the aussie guy, he's pretty good. i understand what he's talking abt.

i am so in love with this blogshop - Jeanine Gabrielle
she's a GENIUS..
bought some stuff frm her the first time and i decided i want a bracelet too!

she asked me to choose btwn bling and pink..
i chose bling..
haha, im boring, i knw i knw..

bought a couple of rings frm her and the elmo earstuds.. super cute!!! :D
ok, i think she earn alot frm me sia :SSSS
hahahaha.. but she's uber awesome.. shld check her stuff out..

reading rozz's blog.. rozz frm 987fm.. shan's blog is like dead.. he only post once? and that's it..
why do all these people use wordpress? is it better? lols
maybe im feeling starstruck.. oh wells..

rozz's blog has lots of food entries.. super jealous.. such good food and she's so skinny.. oh wells.. joys of life..

did i mention, i went swimming today!!! hahahaha..
some hot dude was doing free style up and down the pool lengthwise and i was doing breadthstroke breadthwise..
haha.. oh wells.. came up aft a while and felt icky..
eeyer, can they not put chlorine in the water.. haiz.. feels so eeyer aft that..

i took a nap and woke up to....

( this song )

deep inside, i guess i knew i was just holding on to nothing.
im just holding on to you perhaps im scared of being lonely again.
im holding on so desperately you dont knw because u dont have time for me.
im not number one or close. im like somewhere down below the line after God.
so maybe it's just not meant to be.

i was thinking of the future. of us.
but i guess 2 yrs is enough.
enough of submission, enough of pacifying you when i upset you.
i don't knw why when im upset and then you get upset, it's my fault.
it's not my fucking fault right?
u're no more there for me. not even listening to my problems.
u're just giving out when im down.
i just need someone to listen.

if it's like this in marriage, i think that wld suck.
i've always been there for you.
and u've been there for me when you can.
i guess we're both wearing out and it'll be time to go.

Ive changed my layout cos it's a new year!!!!!!
and this new layout is pretty awesome.. quite nature-y and GREEN! :D
so im not complaining (:

well.. school has started.. im over the down cycle in dec 09.
FAREWELL & GOOD RIDDANCE!!

which reminds me, i shld meet up with mrs low.. i really miss her..
it's been like 5 yrs since i left sec sch.. and i only met her for a short while last year. haiz..

OK!!! a new year (:

back to sch ytd..
lessons started at 830am OMG.. which ended a bit before 1130am and had only fruits for lunch cos sara n i weren't so hungry..
had employment relations at 12pm and ended at 2pm la!!! omg.. cos he didn't wanna teach us anything as it's our first lect..
aft that, went to Taka to get my stuff frm peoplesearch for APEC..
omg, got a laptop bag, BUT NO LAPTOP!! hahaha.. met dave (one of the ICs in Changi Airport) then talked for a while and left..
mama called when i wanted to walk arnd taka and shop for a while.. haiz..

went down to j8 and bought some foodstuff :DDDD
had yakitori with rice and the deep fried chicken for lunch.. at like 4++ hahaha..

anw, back to printing notes.. im so lazy cos the printer doesn't print 2-sided..
so, i totally feel like going to school, use a cashcard to pay for all the printing.. haiz!!!! but i guess it'll be crowded cos sch just started..

oh yeah! billy's starting sch at SIM!! he's in UB.. so might see him arnd.. YAYS!!

slept quite late last night, and the printer died on me :(((
didn't send the sis to work today and i slept till 11am.. OMG!!!
i was so shocked.. anw, her frame that i got pple to sign and all for her dropped in d middle of the night..
haiz.. we all woke up, even snowie..

lesson later at 330.. damn, have to read the tb..

okies, going to print notes now..

TATA~~

if i'd known sooner, i'd never be bothered with the stupid dhl package.
anw, i guess that's just me. stressing myself out over nothing.

ytd, back at work, kelvin said "if they have any problem, then let them call me" cos according to him, the packages are in China, so their territory. don't care.
hahahaha, i don't knw why i don't have this "don't care" attitude.
HAIZ..

anw, sch starts TOMORROW!! :D
im excited!!!!
but im sad that justin won't have the same classes as me :((((

decided not to perm my hair in the end.
too costly, and don't knw where to go. omg.

anw, when i feel like it, i'll do a thankful 2009
hahahahaha..

so, it's back to sch tmr!
gosh, i have so much things to bring..
selling books and what nots. lols!!!!

TATA!