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going to change blog. might keep this as a selling one if i want to.. lols..
the next one will be a huge shift from this..
cos i'll be leaving the past behind..
not throwing it away, just leaving it and moving on.
u've emotionally blackmailed me so many times, my heart and eyes can't take it anymore..
i suffer from puffy eyes cos of u.
heartbreak because u keep pushing the blame on me.
u made me confused and i mixed up..
i never want to talk to u ever again..
it wasn't supposed to end so badly..
i just can't take it anymore.

i have an essay due tom n my sis is helping me edit it atm but its still far from completion.
and i have an 830am class tmr.
tell me im screwed. ok, no dont, i take it back.
i think i can diagnose depression for myself.
i hate how sim comes up with their timetable.
like right aft the cny hols, i have lessons at 830am frm wed - sat.
and the following week, i only have classes on wed and thurs.
like, WTF, more efficient planning?
and the fact that we just had a hand in on the 11th feb, and cny arnd the corner, like WTF!!!!
im getting cranky.. and i alrdy missed today's ER lesson in the morning.
my life is not getting better unfortunately..
being asked to send the car for servicing, ended up in up secluded area with no transport and wasting my time.
like, i skipped class today to do my essay and here i am, asked to send the car in for servicing..
like i was supposed to pull an all-nighter last nite.
this is so not happening.
i need sleep.
NOW.

MANY HEARTS ARE HUNGRY TONIGHT
MANY TRAPPED IN DARKNESS
YEARN FOR THE LIGHT
SO MANY WHO ARE FAR FROM HOME
AND MANY WHO ARE LOST
O LORD YOUR WOUNDED CHILDREN NEED
THE POWER OF YOUR CROSS

AS BREAD THAT IS BROKEN
USE OUR LIVES
AS WINE THAT IS POURED OUT
A WILLING SACRIFICE
EMPOWER US FATHER
TO SHARE THE LOVE OF CHRIST
AS BREAD THAT IS BROKEN LORD
USE OUR LIVES

HELP US TO BEGIN WHERE WE ARE
HELP US LOVE THE PEOPLE
NEAR TO OUR HEARTS
THEN GIVE OUR FAITH A MISSION FIELD
WHEREVER YOU MAY CALL
LORD LOVE THE WORLD
THROUGH EACH ONE OF US
UNTIL WE’VE TOUCHED THEM ALL

Songwriter: Peter G. Van Breemen & Edward Farrell

this song just popped into my mind as i was showering.. lols..
yes! HMT grp assignment is done.
that means i have to buck up and start on my ER which is due next week..
and i have microecons test on 23rd feb.
killing the joy of CNY.
HAIZ
and then another individual HMT assignment.
i can't seem to adjust..
oh Lord, help me.

i hope today will be better.
still no mood to do ER.
but i knw i must persist.

Dear God,
Despite all my shortcomings and troubles, thank You for being there for me.
Please give me the strength and guidance i need to focus on my schoolwork and none on distractions.
Thank You for the gift of today and I pray that You'll watch over my family and friends everyday.
Amen.

i need closure.
that's all i need.
i need to get over u.
i need time.
i need. you.

im beginning to like the smell of the Johnsons PH 5.5 body wash..
it's a major difference frm the dettol cool soap that im using but ive grown to like it..
even though it doesn't give me that cooling after effect..
i shall try to start my ER assignment soon.
note the keyword TRY
but i knw i must do it. haiz.. the wonders of being a student..

anw, i have to go to causeway point today to buy bedsheets and 3m hooks then have oxtail for lunch! ((:

im beginning to forget. i am scared.

mon (8/2)
12 - lunch / justin comes
1 to 3 - send carpets to Bukit Timah Plaza
3 to 5 - test drive subaru at toa payoh, work out finances
7 - dinner with qm, janis, dan at dhoby ghaut

tues (9/2)
12pm to 6 - kim seng's hse do proj
MAYBE mj till late at tiff's hse

wed (10/2)
1.30 - lunch with cheryn at SIM
3.30 to 6.30 - Prices & Markets

thurs (11/2)
8.30 to 11.30 - HMT
HMT DUEEEE OMGGGGGGG

fri (12/2)
12 to 3pm - ER lect

haiz, so tired how to do ER..
or, more like, where got MOTIVATION to do ER..

haha..

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING EVERYBODY!!!
TIME TO BUY ORANGES! :D

i haven't even started on my ER assignment which is due on 20th feb.
exactly 14 days more. but many days will be eroded away due to CNY..
haiz..
in a predicament.
not fun.

ytd, went to mass. aft that, went to woodlands ave 1 to pump petrol where we met gou ku kong (4th Grand Uncle)
he bumped into mum hahaha.. mum was thinking like, wth, i try to move past him without knocking into him he walk straight into me. hahaha..
damn funny..
then the cashier also  another gundooooo.. so long la to wait.. annoyance..

went to causeway but carpark was so crowded that we went to sun plaza instead..
walked arnd for a while then came home.
hung up hooks for pics..
niceeee (:
slept damn late last night due to that..

i need to find a chair with a backing that i can put on my bed..
im like slouching and hunching trying to use my com and it's making my back ache :(
oh wells..

went shopping on fri aft ER lect with mum..
bought so much stuff!!!!!!
damn tired..
cld hardly wake up for class the next day..
haiz..

ok, i shall take a nap (:
hahaha..
pls pray for me.
haiz.